life as we call it…

No matter where we
come from, what languages we speak or what color our skin is, we are all unique
in special ways. We all share the same desire and hunger to succeed and most
importantly to love and to be loved. Many have argued that love is only a
feeling and cannot bring wealth nor success but deep inside, we all know that
love is the greatest motivation that a person can have.

  When I was at the airport and on the verge of
boarding the plane to come to

Japan

, I caught a glimpse of my mum’s face and I couldn’t help but
notice that there was something shining in her eyes. I quickly realized that it
was her tears. I didn’t realize it was happening but I could soon feel streams
of tears on my own cheeks. I was actually crying too! Trying to avoid her gaze,
I hastily waved back at her. It struck me then, as if I hadn’t realized it
before, that I was all alone now, facing a whole new world. Stepping into the
unknown, into a world that seemed so strange. I felt a sudden coldness as if an
ice cube had been trickling down my back. I was actually feeling scared to leave
the comfort and warmness of the ones I love the most. Even though there were a
lot of people around me then, I felt so alone, rooted in the moment all by
myself. I wandered where all the love and security had disappeared to so
quickly? Is it all now left in my memory? Or should I move forward and face the
world that is waiting for me. A new adventure awaits me.

  As soon as I arrived in

Japan

, the land
of the rising sun as it is called, I could smell and feel the breeze of a new
world. New hope burned inside me. I knew that it was going to be a long,
winding journey but I also knew it was going to be a new adventure! So, I gathered
the strength within myself and walked on. I knew then that I had to find a new
source to fill the emptiness inside me. My new friends were a lot of help to
me. Even though we were raised in totally different kind of backgrounds and
cultures, they made me feel as if I was one of them. Those differences don’t
matter as long as we had respect for each other. For me, that is the most
important thing to have. We would play games, soccer and even go snowboarding
together. We shared our laughter and tears together. They made me feel loved
again, in a way. They would teach me about their cultures, and I, in return would
share what my culture was like. We even tasted each others cooking. To tell you
the truth I’m not that good at cooking but at least my friends liked it! I began
to feel glad I had come here so that I could experience many new things as well
as expand my understanding of my own culture.

  Now I understand that love is a universal
language. Though cultures and backgrounds may vary among us we share one thing
in common. In order to be loved we must love and accept others for who they
really are. Let me recite to you a short poem of mine.

Sometimes we let affection,
go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love
go unexpressed,
Sometimes we let our friendship go unnoticed,
Sometimes we can’t find words to tell
our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the best.

Now, I understand what the tears and laughter meant. It was
just a matter of love!
Well, I hope you all know how I feel today. I am proud to be
here sharing this with all of you.

Look at the people around you. Look at the people sitting
beside you. Embrace them, love them. Make love not war!

 
Today, 17th august.. dawn just beckoned on me.. I suddenly woke up in the morning n noticed that it was time to perform the subuh..i took this chance to have shower as I was soaked in sweat( even though I switched on 2 fans!!) it was really hot :p..hehe..

You know something..it just suddenly struck me as if lightning had struck me right in the forehead..(just like it had on harry potter..hehe). I just realized that my friends are not here  with me anymore.. I wondered where they’d all gone to? They can’t have woken up yet? Not this early…? For a moment I gazed and stared blankly at the lamb beside me.. i staggered to remember..
  Last night I had just sent the last 2 of my friends to the train station
.. they had been with me for nearly two weeks now.. each day by my side..i’ve seen it before, one by one left this place that I called ‘home’.. it’s kinda sad really thinking about it
..  since the start of the summer holidays,I’ve never been alone without my friends here.. everyone here have never seen more people come here at any other time.. everyone kept asking me why on earth are my friends had come to gather here? I had no idea but the one thing that I know most..that I enjoyed every second,every minute and every breath that I breathe that I took..!
‘we had fun we had seasons in the sun..’ ( westlife song.. hehe.)

  So much to write with so little space and time..(excuses that I just made up…the fact is that I don’t really know how to express this feeling right now…:p) so just bear with me will you? Thanx..hehe.. (I bet you could just imagine how my face is right now..full of emotions and exaggerated expressions. Hehe.. ). Owh,how I longed fro these moments.. I didn’t care if I was caught bringing all of my friends to stay in my room..( the rules said that you cant bring friends to stay in your room..! but what do I care..hehe..) and yet at one time it almost reach 20 people..hehe.. I was caught onece but then I made up a story so that my friends could stay..hehe..  I was really thrilled..

The first ones to arrive was amir and irfan.. 2 of my bests friends.. we had so much fun together..
we went to see the bonfire night.. it was just really breathtaking.. i’ve never been so excited n lost for words in my entire life.. and yet there i sat between my friends..amir n shobri.. ang we laid there on the ground..with thousands of people..the biggest night that nagaoka had to offer..they call it ‘HANABI’ which means bunga api in malay..as we laid there fireworks after fireworks exploded in front of us..at one time we thought that it would fall on us but it fizzled out just meters befor us..so beautiful..I wish you could bee there too..I will remember it forever.
I tried my best to let all of you enjoy and cherish the times when you are here.. I know that i had a wonderful time though.. so much to see, so much to experience.. even though I’ve been there and done that.. but when you’re with your friends or your best pals.. its just totally different.. a sort of magic inserted into all the things that you do and the way you see it.. don’t you think so? we played bowlings..we had a big icecream about half a meter tall.. ‘mitebikkuri yo’..hehe..we ate it till we wouldnt want another icecream ever again..haha.we went to the waterfalls together..even though its summer the water was freezing cold..but it was really fun..hehe..

So, after a week,we went to Osaka to meet up with the rest of our friends.. the 9

of us went together from Nagaoka.( amir,mat yie,zul,zamih,din,akmal,sobb n pai n theres me..*wink*) I will talk about Osaka next time round..okey?
One week later though tired and lost for words.. I just summed it up with I”LL ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS!! Hehe.. I actually had to return back earlier than I planned.. sorry Ani that I cant cant go to maizuru and have bbq there.. I really wished that I could be there..huhu. hope 2 see u soon though.. and so I head back up to nagaoka whoch took almost 12 gruelling hours..we had to change trains 7 times I think.. !!
Halim and irfan went with me..we wanted to go to IPIJ summer camp.. it was really amazing..i didn’t expect it to be this fun!! I’ll tell about it later… its now about 5.30 in the morning.. and I’m really tired right now.. tomorrow 4 more will arrive here.. (azizol,aizat,saniy n hazwan…cant wait to see you guys..)
Friends.. I really appreciate all the things that we had done together..=).
Miss u guys…

-yeh-

.: APAKAH PENGERTIAN MEMAKAI TUDUNG? :.

Bila wanita menjaga auratnya dari pandangan
lelaki bukan muhram, bukan sahaja dia menjaga
maruah dirinya, malah maruah wanita mukmin
keseluruhannya. Harga diri wanita terlalu mahal. Ini
kerana syariat telah menetapkan supaya wanita
berpakaian longgar dengan warna yang tidak
menarik serta menutup seluruh badannya dari
kepala hingga ke kaki.

Kalau dibuat perbandingan dari segi harta dunia
seperti intan dan berlian, ianya dibungkus dengan
rapi dan disimpan pula di dalam peti besi yang
berkunci. Begitu juga diumpamakan dengan
wanita, Kerana wanita yang bermaruah tidak akan
mempamerkan tubuh badan di khalayak umum.
Mereka masih boleh tampil di hadapan
masyarakat bersesuaian dengan garisan syarak.
Wanita tidak sepatutnya mengorbankan maruah
dan dirinya semata-mata untuk mengejar pangkat,
darjat, nama, harta dan kemewahan dunia.

Menyentuh berkenaan pakaian wanita,
alhamdulillah sekarang telah ramai wanita yang
menjaga auratnya, sekurang-kurangnya dengan
memakai tudung. Dapat kita saksikan di

sana

sini
wanita mula memakai tudung. Pemakaian tudung
penutup aurat sudah melanda dari peringkat
bawahan hingga kepada peringkat atasan.
Samada dari golongan pelajar-pelajar sekolah
hinggalah kepada pekerja-pekerja pejabat-pejabat.

Walaupun pelbagai

gaya

tudung diperaga dan
dipakai, namun pemakaiannya masih tidak
lengkap dan sempurna. Masih lagi menampakkan
batang leher, dada dan sebagainya.

Ada

yang
memakai tudung, tetapi pada masa yang sama
memakai kain belah bawah atau berseluar ketat
dan sebagainya. Pelbagai warna dan pelbagai
fesyen tudung turut direka untuk wanita-wanita
Islam kini.

Ada

rekaan tudung yang dipakai dengan songkok
di dalamnya, dihias pula dengan kerongsang
(broach) yang menarik. Labuci warna-warni dijahit
pula di atasnya. Dan berbagai-bagai

gaya

lagi
yang dipaparkan dalam majalah dan suratkhabar
fesyen untuk tudung. Rekaan itu kesemuanya
bukan bertujuan untuk mengelakkan fitnah,
sebaliknya menambahkan fitnah ke atas wanita.

Walhal sepatutnya pakaian bagi seorang wanita
mukmin itu adalah bukan sahaja menutup
auratnya, malah sekaligus menutup maruahnya
sebagai seorang wanita. Iaitu pakaian dan tudung
yang tidak menampakkan bentuk tubuh badan
wanita, dan tidak berhias-hias yang mana akan
menjadikan daya tarikan kepada lelaki bukan
muhramnya. Sekaligus pakaian boleh melindungi
wanita dari menjadi bahan gangguan lelaki yang
tidak bertanggungjawab.

Bilamana wanita bertudung tetapi masih berhias-
hias, maka terjadilah pakaian wanita Islam
sekarang walaupun bertudung, tetapi semakin
membesarkan riak dan bangga dalam diri.
Sombong makin bertambah. Jalan mendabik dada.
Terasa tudung kitalah yang paling cantik, up-to-
date, sofistikated, bergaya, ada kelas dan
sebagainya. Bertudung, tapi masih ingin bergaya.

Kesimpulannya, tudung yang kita pakai tidak
membuahkan rasa kehambaan. Kita tidak
merasakan diri ini hina, banyak berdosa dengan
Tuhan mahupun dengan manusia. Kita tidak terasa
bahawa menegakkan syariat dengan bertudung ini
hanya satu amalan yang kecil yang mampu kita
laksanakan. Kenapa hati mesti berbunga dan
berbangga bila boleh memakai tudung?

Ada

orang bertudung tetapi lalai atau tidak
bersembahyang.

Ada

orang yang bertudung tapi
masih lagi berkepit dan keluar dengan teman
lelaki .

Ada

orang bertudung yang masih terlibat
dengan pergaulan bebas.

Ada

orang bertudung
yang masih menyentuh tangan-tangan lelaki yang
bukan muhramnya. Dan bermacam-macam lagi
maksiat yang dibuat oleh orang-orang bertudung
termasuk kes-kes besar seperti zina, khalwat dan
sebagainya.

Jadi, nilai tudung sudah dicemari oleh orang-orang
yang sebegini. Orang Islam lain yang ingin ikut
jejak orang-orang bertudung pun tersekat melihat
sikap orang-orang yang mencemari hukum Islam.
Mereka rasakan bertudung atau menutup aurat
sama sahaja dengan tidak bertudung. Lebih baik
tidak bertudung. Mereka rasa lebih bebas lagi.

Orang-orang bukan Islam pula tawar hati untuk
masuk Islam kerana sikap umat Islam yang tidak
menjaga kemuliaan hukum-hakam Islam.
Walaupun bertudung, perangai mereka sama
sahaja dengan orang-orang bukan Islam. mereka
tidak nampak perbezaan agama Islam dengan
agama mereka.

Lihatlah betapa besarnya peranan tudung untuk
dakwah orang lain. Selama ini kita tidak sedar diri
kitalah agen bagi Islam. Kita sebenarnya
pendakwah Islam. Dakwah kita bukan seperti
pendakwah lain tapi hanya melalui pakaian.

Kalau kita menutup aurat, tetapi tidak terus
memperbaiki diri zahir dan batin dari masa ke
semasa, kitalah punca gagalnya mesej Islam
untuk disampaikan. Jangan lihat orang lain. Islam
itu bermula dari diri kita sendiri.

Ini tidak bermakna kalau akhlak belum boleh jadi
baik tidak boleh pakai tudung. Aurat, wajib ditutup
tapi dalam masa yang sama, perbaikilah kesilapan
diri dari masa ke semasa. Tudung di luar tudung di
dalam (hati). Buang perangai suka mengumpat,
berdengki, berbangga, ego, riak dan lain-lain
penyakit hati.

Walau apapun, kewajipan bertudung tidak terlepas
dari tanggungjawab setiap wanita Muslim. Samada
baik atau tidak akhlak mereka, itu adalah antara
mereka dengan Allah. Amat tidak wajar jika kita
mengatakan si polanah itu walaupun bertudung,
namun tetap berbuat kemungkaran. Berbuat
kemungkaran adalah satu dosa, manakala tidak
menutup aurat dengan menutup aurat adalah satu
dosa lain.

Kalau sudah mula menutup aurat, elak-elaklah diri
dari suka bertengkar. Hiasi diri dengan sifat tolak
ansur. Sentiasa bermanis muka. Elakkan
pergaulan bebas lelaki perempuan. Jangan lagi
berjalan ke hulu ke hilir dengan teman lelaki.
Serahkan pada Allah tentang jodoh. Memang Allah
sudah tetapkan jodoh masing-masing. Yakinlah
pada ketentuan qada’ dan qadar dari Allah.

Apabila sudah menutup aurat,

cuba

kita tingkatkan
amalan lain.

Cuba

jangan tinggal sembahyang lagi
terutama dalam waktu bekerja.

Cuba

didik diri
menjadi orang yang lemah-lembut. Buang sifat
kasar dan sifat suka bercakap dengan suara
meninggi. Buang sikap suka mengumpat, suka
mengeji dan mengata hal orang lain. jaga tertib
sebagai seorang wanita. Jaga diri dan maruah
sebagai wanita Islam. Barulah nampak Islam itu
indah dan cantik kerana indah dan cantiknya
akhlak yang menghiasi peribadi wanita muslimah.

Barulah orang terpikat untuk mengamalkan Islam.
Dengan ini, orang bukan Islam akan mula hormat
dan mengakui "Islam is really beautiful."
Semuanya bila individu Islam itu sudah cantik
peribadinya. Oleh itu wahai wanita-wanita Islam
sekalian, anda mesti mengorak langkah sekarang
sebagai agen pengembang agama melalui pakaian.

sumber dicetak semula oleh yeh..=)..

i’ve been here for over a month..this was the first chance to see my friends.. i just cant wait for that day..owh how i’ve miss them..

i’ve miss their jokes..their faces when we make fun with them.. sharing our stories..and gossiping..owh the good old days..how i wish i could turn back the clocks.. but this is life isn’t it? we just have to go living…

i’d have to travel for 6hours by train..and i had to change three times..but i dont care about these petty difficulties..all i want is to be with my friends… at last were going to gather together..about 12 of us.. some came from the south..fom remote areas..(maizuru n bukit tokuyama..hehe..) n some from the hustle n bustle of the metropilise itself..(oyama pn bley gak r..).. i went with a friend..zamih.. we shared our journey together..

after leaving nagaoka.. we soon could see the beauty of true japan.. we went through places covered with snow..mountains so cold..and after 6 gruelling hours..at last we arrived in tokyo st. owh..how i missed the hot weather.. or at least it’s warmer here than in nagaoka..hehe..

from the moment i stepped out of the train.. people were rushing here n there minding their own business..now at least i understand what tokyo is all about.. i arrived in ueno st. then we had to change trains again to head for shinjuku.. the heart of tokyo.. we didnt know exactly where it is.. we had to go there as our friends were waiting there.. fortunately we found them.. i didn’t know what to do if we didn’t meet them there and then..(probably have cried..);p..hehe..

there was standing there in the middle of the crowd.. a face which i havent seen for 4 whole weeks.. amir..alan n wan.. my heart were full of joy.. i didnt know that i was so happy and relieved to see them.. these were the people which i had so many memories with.. good n bad memories..hehe..

then we headed towards the exit of the worlds most busiest station..i was so excited when i first saw the city.. shinjuku like i have never ever seen it…(well i’ve actually seen it in tv of course..hehe).. seas of people.. people with suits to peolple with strange hairstyle n weird outfits.. while my eyes were having a feast.. my stomach was really getting very hungry..hehe..as i didnt have anything to eat as far yet..

we headed towards a halal restaurant..called ‘karachi’..it IS the place to enjoy halal foods..hehe.. it is a ‘tabehoudai’ which means you have to pay a certain amount n then u can eat as much as u like until u burst with food..hehe.. (that only a caption that i made up..).. there i met with some more of my friends..shazni,khalid,din n imi n a few of my senpais..

i couldnt go to see the thomas cup semifinal coz i had to wait up for some more of my friens..anwar n basyir..arriving by bus n kamal.. i couldn’t wait to be with my friends again…

>>to be continued….

I’ll stand by you…

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don’t know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you’re mad, get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you’re wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

And when…
When the night falls on you baby
You’re feeling all alone
You won’t be on your own

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you